Dreaming!

If you read yesterday's post, you will know that last evening was difficult. The second lozenge was not the end of it. No - the nicodemon followed me to bed!!!!! Yup - into my dreams. A BEAUTIFUL blue (the most striking blue that you have ever seen) cigarette package - from which I extracted a cigarette. I do not remember lighting it, but I do remember taking a very looooonnnggg drag. Oh - but the emotion that followed! I felt AWFUL!! Guilt beyond measure! This experience has perhaps taught me something..... As the daily stresses increase, the effort of counteracting those stresses at the work-days end must also increase. While taking a second lozenge might not be an earth-shattering transgression, I do realize that I must find other means to relieve that pressure that builds up throughout the course of 'issue' days. Many things come to mind - more exercise; more music practise; more munchies; more home computer time; or perhaps a pet. I think I am aware of the problem, and must now find a solution.