Hell Week

Ha - Quit Net calls the first week "Hell Week". That it was. I now am looking forward to "Heck Week"! It should be a blast! The loss of my voice is perhaps a good thing. (Keeps me from swearing - at least out loud - tee hee) As is am writing this post, I find that I am forcing myself to think of the 'positives'. Why is it easier to dwell on the negatives during this journey? Is it perhaps that I feel that I am losing a 'friend'? - That crutch that has served me for the last 46 years? Well, let me say that the tobacco has not been much of a friend during the past several years. It was hurting me and I knew it. In fact, I did not even like it. I hated the taste (had to suck on candies when I smoked) I did not like the way it made me feel - tired and breathless. And yet I hung on to that 'abusive' relationship. Why?