Second Hand

So strange it is.... When I first began this journey, I found that the smell of cigarette smoke actually made me feel ill. Now, however, I have discovered that the odor of tobacco smoke is very very pleasant to me - especially if I catch the scent while I am outside. I continue to be super-sensitive to the odor - I think I could smell a burning cigarette from a mile away - but now it is a pleasant thing - while just a few short weeks ago it was almost painful. Perhaps this is a good thing???? Or perhaps this is bad thing??? I don't know - but thus far that pleasant odor has not tempted me.... So far during this journey I have not been in a room with smokers (thankfully). I am sure that it would not be a pleasant time.... However, that outside thing - the faint scent of tobacco leaves smouldering caught by the wind currents. Could it be so bad that it smells good to me? Could it be so different than the fragrance of the Cypress Hills in the early spring, newly mown grass, fresh baked bread, freshly brewed coffee.... Perhaps, it stirs a memory of pleasant times leisurely enjoying a smoke while camping, fishing, or just out on the deck with friends and neighbors.. Perhaps it is a connection thing...you know how certain music will remind you of a pleasant time in your life? Well perhaps the smell of tobacco sort of rekindles a memory of 'calm'???? How's that for a amateur analysis of one's own thought processes?