Rebirth

It is spring - the time of the year when the miracle of rebirth occures. The robins return, the crocuses bloom, the tulips pop up, tiny shoots poke their heads up from underground - promising wonderous things to come. Buds begin to form on the trees. There is an excitement in the air. It is a busy time. Birds are frantically searching for mates. Soon the nest building will begin. And soon there will be eggs in those nests, then birth of new life. 2 years ago I gave my neigbour a few sweet pea seeds from my garden. He planted them last year around his deck and got just a few plants from those seeds. He harvested the seeds from those few plants last fall, and now has plans of growing a whole row of Sweet Peas this year. Life - in any form - multiplies many fold! What a gift! It has been said that the only things certain in this life is death and taxes. Could we add to this list glorious, beautiful, forgiving, resurrecting spring??? There is conflict and strife during this season. Competition amongst the species - males trying to prove their superiority, and females making the assessment as to which male has the most favorable gene to pass on to their offsrping. This is the spring of my new life as a non-smoker. During the first few weeks, there was an excitement - a promise of things to come. A freedom from the 'nicodemon' If I might take the liberty to equate this personal experience to what is happening around me in the natural world - well perhaps I am now at the stage of conflict and strife. There is a promise of wonderous things to come - being at ease with being a non-smoker - and looking forward to the multiplication of the benefits of being a non-smoker. There is right now certainly a competition between myself and the 'nicodemon'. Thus far 'self' has prevailed. I look forward to the day that I can truly feel REBORN and emerge from this 'holy hell' free from the daily struggle. Just as a 'side-note' I am finding that when I take a 4mg nicotene lozenge, I get the hiccups! This must be a good sign! My quit buddy Charlie told me that he is now cutting these things in half. I will try that until I run out of them and then perhaps try the lower doseage ones.